For my baby.
How can I put into words
the way…
you are,
have been,
and what I dream will be forever.
For people change,
and it is that change that has
brought me great pain.
My greatest wish
is that my pain dissolve.
And with that
wish, comes hope of the future.
A future my heart
desperately craves
your presence in.
the start
It has to start somewhere…it always does, and i think that this started in love, and THEN the friendship came. It cam in the best way that it could…spontaneous. Like a combustion only not as painful or dramatic. So really, it wan’t like a combustion at all. More like the best thing that has happened to my yet.
time
Maybe there will be a time when it will all come true. Maybe I’m waiting for nothing, but there is that possible chance that I am waiting for what could be the my future. Maybe I’m lost and just looking for a little help in finding my way through. Or maybe I’m exactly where i need to be.
However, the time has come when my heart is telling me how to think and what to do. This lends itself to being a problem. I’ve past the point of over analyzing everything. I’m ready to just leave it be and see what happens. Am I really lost in directions or am I lost in love?
I think I have to find out the problems and positives of each possibility. Because they both can be dangerous, however, I believe I am going at this with a great heart, my mind is sound, and I have thought out most if not all the possible effects of it.
Life Thus Far
Call me crazy but I thought life was to loosen up a little bit toward the end of the semester. However, life is picking up. I don’t have many finals but I do have acting scenes due and performances left.
I am staying calm, oddly, because of my new best friend. In fact he is more than a best friend. He has become something more then that. Something I never thought would develop has and I find myself loving it and the fact that my night consists of me calling him and talking to him until I fall asleep or he makes me.
Maybe I shouldn’t be as happy as I am…But I don’t care. He has made me, and is making me happier then I ever have been before. And maybe that is putting a lot of credit on him, but he deserves it. I’m not the same.
Life thus far has been rocky. I have to say though that i am falling more in love with life as each day passes. The texts come in, to my cell and the phone calls and the e-mailing.
