Paradoxi?
So I am caught in a paradox. And I am thinking about writing about it. Other then here of course. But this paradox involves three people. And I am trying to figure it all out.
Next I have a second paradox I am so fucking happy, but at the same time I couldn’t feel more alone, and at the same time as that I am sad. Now to explain. My happiness has EVERYTHING to do with DB.
DB and I have been talking and getting to know one another, which is hard being thousands of miles away. But I am slowly falling for DB and I am okay with that.
Next, I couldn’t feel more alone because DB is so far away. The fact that DB is so sweet, caring, giving, and intelligent make me want to be with DB more and more. But alas DB is not near. I have to deal with that slowly.
And lastly my sadness has to do with a text message I got yesterday letting me know that a friend of mine from my old college was killed. But to no avail DB was right there to ‘hold me hand’ through it. And I was able to smile through tech for the show and let everyone think that everything was okay. (maybe not the best thing but it works for me.) (it is also something I need to work on.)
So without giving everything away I continue to be inside at least on paradox if not two or three.
Romach said,
April 12, 2008 at 1:52 pm
Hey buddy that is truly sad about your friend being killed. That is such sad news to hear and my heart goes out to you. Its never easy hearing that kind of news, it really isn’t so big hugs to you. As for DB, Eiain and I started dating when I lived in Ireland and we were flying back and forth just to spend a few hours together etc. Distance can be a bummer but never let if become a barrier!